I just got back from a tough movie called "My Sister's Keeper."  I don't really know what to say about it because on one hand it was amazing and on the other hand it was terribly sad but I think that's what the movie was supposed to make you feel.  Anyhow I got braces on my bottom teeth today and could really use a tylenol.  To be honest, I don't mind them that much I just don't want to have to deal with worrying about food getting stuck or cutting my lip or I don't even know.  They are clear so you can barely see them but it still is inconvenient and there are worse things in life than getting clear braces the summer of your senior year.  If that's one of the biggest problems I have right now then I must have it pretty good.  My cat, Baby, got her nails clipped today and thankfully she no longer leaves a beautiful mark on my skin whenever I want to hug her!  I know I am bias but I must say that Baby is the greatest and smartest cat in this entire world.  She is basically a dog and follows me around wherever I go.  She comes when I call her and sleeps in my bed every night snuggling with me whenever I finally fall asleep.  I wake up to her cuddled up to my shoulder or arm and it's the best thing ever! I am such a freak because I love my cat so much but I feel like she is my child.  I love the responsibility of taking care of her and feeding her and making sure she is comfortable sleeping which she probably has no clue since she is not human but I like to think she does.  We as humans thrive to be someone's hero.  There is something inside each and every one of us that wants to take care of someone else or help make someone else's life a little easier.  No matter how harsh someone has become there is still a slight hint of feelings left in us all and I am so fascinated with watching the way people handle each other.  I love people watching and love seeing relationships among any sort of people whether its friends, lovers or family.  We are so unique and can be so cruel yet so kind to one another.  One of my favorite things to watch are two people falling in love.  Yes, I am a romantic and possibly an idealist. But really, I am so thrilled with a couple showing love and expressing the way they feel about each other in the most subtle ways or not so subtle ways.  How magnificent is the human heart and it's abilities so feel such strong feelings to the point that it physically hurts?  The Lord truly blesses us with that ability to love and be loved and any one is foolish who says that the pain is not worth the pleasure of being in love.  

"To love and live beloved is the soul's paradise" -John Winthrop

Pep Squad

I finally joined the club and saw the musical known as "Wicked" last night and it was amazing!  Their voices and gifts are incredible and now I know why so many people are so obsessed with the show! My mom and I had a great time eating dinner downtown and then watching the show and I realized just how blessed I am to have such a healthy amazing family.  We definitely have our ups and downs and probably have experienced more than most of the suburban families I live among but when it comes down to it I can only smile and reflect on how strong we have become.  I think the Lord gives us family because He wants us to enjoy the beautiful coexistence and unity that He has with the Holy Spirit and Christ.  I was reading The Shack by WM. Paul Young and also saw this unity.  I can't believe there was such an uprising about this book and why so many people criticized it on being blasphemous since the author clearly wrote it as a fictional story and really was not trying to create such a ruckus.  While reading it I discovered how wonderful the existence of unity among the Trinity and how beautifully equal the three are. My view on how the trinity works was changed and not because I am now following the beliefs of Mr. Young but because I believe his image of how the Trinity works is quite possibly the most clarifying I have ever heard.  We are supposed to work like that and in a perfect world I know there would be beautiful peace among all of us because each one would not be higher than the rest but work together as a team.  I sound like a pep squad leader all the time I know but I don't really care because what I believe is that the only way to find this peace is by following the example set by the Trinity and discovering just how we were created to work before sin took over our lives.  

Splurge

So I must say that it has been quite a while since I last posted.  I've been... busy? If that is even how I should describe what has been going on.  One thing I know for sure is that being 17 comes with some baggage.  It's hard feeling things that are new and wanting things your parents might not want you to have .. yet, or seeing the world around you in a perspective that clarifies all you thought you knew when you were younger.  I was sharing with my mom that the places that once seemed like an enchanted forest filled with dancing fireflies and orchestras of creatures singing the beautiful song of nature now looks like an open field with a park bench.  I think that is part of the reason why children have such joy.  Because they refuse to see the reality of just a normal park bench.  What they see is much more delicate and magnificent then anything we could imagine now and I envy that gift they are given and hope that today's society with their fast moving pace doesn't strip the youth of that wonderful sense of innocence and imagination too soon.  Because that's what they will hope for when they are older.  They will want that fairy tale back and slightly remember a world where everything was better and everything was much more interesting than what they see now.  It's almost like they feel as if their childhood was a dream and they promise things were not this dull and once upon a time they were great but it's too far gone that it doesn't seem real.  I don't know what has come over me to express this but there's some "not so likely and who knows what I'm trying to say" bloggness for you.