Splurge

So I must say that it has been quite a while since I last posted.  I've been... busy? If that is even how I should describe what has been going on.  One thing I know for sure is that being 17 comes with some baggage.  It's hard feeling things that are new and wanting things your parents might not want you to have .. yet, or seeing the world around you in a perspective that clarifies all you thought you knew when you were younger.  I was sharing with my mom that the places that once seemed like an enchanted forest filled with dancing fireflies and orchestras of creatures singing the beautiful song of nature now looks like an open field with a park bench.  I think that is part of the reason why children have such joy.  Because they refuse to see the reality of just a normal park bench.  What they see is much more delicate and magnificent then anything we could imagine now and I envy that gift they are given and hope that today's society with their fast moving pace doesn't strip the youth of that wonderful sense of innocence and imagination too soon.  Because that's what they will hope for when they are older.  They will want that fairy tale back and slightly remember a world where everything was better and everything was much more interesting than what they see now.  It's almost like they feel as if their childhood was a dream and they promise things were not this dull and once upon a time they were great but it's too far gone that it doesn't seem real.  I don't know what has come over me to express this but there's some "not so likely and who knows what I'm trying to say" bloggness for you.