Times a Travelin'

It is starting to hit me, yup... I am actually going to college.  I am even starting to get a little pathetic.  All this time I was sure i was ready for it- this new chapter in life.. and maybe I am I just don't want to embrace it just yet.  Thankfully, I still have a few weeks left before it's really time to go but after adding the finishing touches to my dorm shopping and planing things around whether I will be home or not is taking a toll.  I never realized how comfortable I am with what I have and it has occurred to me that I am not very accustomed to change- or maybe just not right now.  Time has never moved this quickly and as I look around me I cannot imagine being so far away from the people I love the most!  

   I went to my best friend's lake house this weekend and along with her family our matching name boyfriends tagged along with us.  It was there that these pathetic emotions started to hit me.  As I was lounging on a tube on the lake I looked around and soaked it all in.  Honestly, I think I could have laid there for hours and never moved because the peacefulness was just amazing.  Anyways, I looked around at my boyfriend, my best friend and her boyfriend and just wanted to snatch them up and put them in a place where time would never touch us and we could just hangout without growing up.  I realized that I could not ask for better friends like them and their involvement in my life has been nothing short of crucial.  I have finally found people who love me for exactly who I am and we all just understand each other to the point that being around each other is never a hassle.  It's the same with my family, and after realizing how great my friends were I wanted to race back home and be with my amazing family too.  I am so thankful for the people close to me because I have been able to love and be loved back without any "strings attached."  I can be myself without worrying whether they will approve or leave me.  I feel like I am just finally at a place of balance in my life and I guess that is why I am scared for anything about it to change.  My life is about to be altered whether I like it or not and after typing all this out I realize once again how perfect the Lord and his plans are in my life.  I don't think it would be as easy to go and live in another place if I was not peaceful at home!? He has built such a strong support for me so that I can handle being away because I know those people will always be there! Wow, I have been worrying myself sick and thinking, dreading and anticipating so much that I haven't tried to sit back and understand what the Lord is doing.  He always takes care of His children and would never give us more than we could handle.  I am thankful that no matter where I live I can turn to Him in an instant- no voicemail or 3G problems... instantly.  

Once again, I have proved to myself the therapeutic process of writing does indeed help.  I am going to treasure the rest of this summer and invest even more in these relationships God has placed so closely in my life.  Having faith that He will carry me into the next day is all I can do when time is moving so fast like this.