Hopeless Romantic

I have come to the conclusion that I am a hopeless romantic.  This being said, I must protect myself.  I see the love stories on movies and like almost every other girl out there, I want it.  I want that Romeo and Juliet, passionate and dramatic yet impossible to live without kind of love.  Does that even exist?  I could have sworn I tasted it, but a good friend pointed out to me the other day that some kinds of love are dangerous and despite my wishful thinking... the love in the movies isn't real.  There's a difference between lustful love and lasting love.   We think true love and misery go together but really it's immature to be in a relationship that sucks so much out of you.  I have witnessed this happen, too.  They were so engrossed with one another that existence became dependent upon each other's words... but what happens when there is nothing to say?  I never believed in the phrase, "Sometimes love isn't enough" because I thought "If I really love someone, anything else would be worth working through because love is worth any hardship... right?"  I think people say that love isn't enough because they weren't really loving.  Love isn't a feeling... but rather a commitment and an oath to seek/be the best for that other person.  Love does not have conditions nor cease to exist because love perseveres.  It SUCKS hearing those three little words from other humans and I simply hate saying it sometimes because I know we can never live up to what they truly mean as long as we are sinful.  As much as someone will tell me they love me I cannot bring myself to believe them unless their actions prove so because so many times I have heard it and said it too that I know how easily the phrase can be thrown around.  Fairy tale love is what can ruin great relationships.  It is misleading and shallow because it does not believe in hardship.  Fairy tale love only see's happily ever after and freaks out when theres a rock in the middle of the road.  It doesn't understand trouble but rather avoids it at all cost.  I've held on to a fairy tale before so hard that I swore it would prevail and by doing this I jeopardized other real relationships around me because I ignored troubles there too.  But without this first encounter of love where would we get our fairy tale stories?  It's these experiences that give song writers songs and movies their script.  Its this love without closure that tears many of us apart and brings us back together a better person in the end.  What would we do if Romeo and Juliet actually ended up together? Sometimes we have to endure it and then let go of previous seasons to embrace the lessons learned in order to appreciate the next things happening, right?  Feelings come and go, but it is the commitment part of love that people forget to hold on to.  I believe love to be something we were all given to enjoy and love to be something worth fighting for.  It breaks my heart to see people settle for anything less than that heart throbbing knee shaking love because it exists... because oh boy does it exist.  However, the ability to decipher between poisonous tortured love and real "I want to be a better person because of you" love is something we've got to try and obtain.  Love gives you the confidence to do anything... it evokes more emotion than anything else from you and drives you absolutely mad.  However, it does not make you hate yourself but rather makes you want to be a better person.  Why am I so obsessed with love? I think because my Father is the very definition of love.  He is the perfect example and it is through Him that we are able to achieve the most satisfying love of all.  AAHH I love it =)

my buddies Mumford and Sons put it nicely...

Love that will not betray you, 

dismay or enslave you,

It will set you free

Be more like the man 

you were made to be.