Well, remember the post where I was jumping for joy and excited? Yeah, that was awesome. Sadly, I haven't been that excited this entire time but what I have been realizing is how balanced I am becoming as I walk with Jesus. I am learning the importance of and the fruit that comes with perseverance and discipline. How, even though at times the last thing I want to do is praise God because the hurt is too much, I say out loud "...blessed be YOUR name." I am learning what it means to seek God through the hard times and thank Him with praises through the good. That no matter what, HIS WILL BE DONE.
I don't think results from practicing discipline had come before because I had never actually committed long enough. "Quiet times" were waking up 5 minutes earlier and stumbling through a blurry bible verse just to check off that I did rather than meditating on scripture and actually hanging out with Jesus.
It's a peaceful and new experience, walking with a bit more balance than before. My awareness of God and His presence does not go to extremes but rather steadily throughout the day. It's like choosing God on a smaller yet more frequent scale because instead of just choosing "Yes, I believe in God today" or "No I don't" I am realizing that as time goes on, walking with balance asks the question, "Are you trusting God" in every situation. And as I am more aware of this question, I find myself asking it on a smaller, more frequent scale and realizing my hesitance more and more.
If you're feeling discouraged because you don't feel like you've completely committed to God, don't kick yourself! (Jeff Wirth would say, "Don't kick yourself, it only gives you bruises.") Every day is new and God's waiting for His children to ask for help. He knows that we need to worship Him and will do anything so that we can have Him. Walking with Jesus is not just the spiritual high you get after summer camp. The richest part of a relationship comes as time goes on and we continue with perseverance and discipline. We consciously choose our Father over everything else.
I feel like I reference the Blue Book so much but I can't help it! I have to share! Here's the closing prayer for this week:
It's a peaceful and new experience, walking with a bit more balance than before. My awareness of God and His presence does not go to extremes but rather steadily throughout the day. It's like choosing God on a smaller yet more frequent scale because instead of just choosing "Yes, I believe in God today" or "No I don't" I am realizing that as time goes on, walking with balance asks the question, "Are you trusting God" in every situation. And as I am more aware of this question, I find myself asking it on a smaller, more frequent scale and realizing my hesitance more and more.
If you're feeling discouraged because you don't feel like you've completely committed to God, don't kick yourself! (Jeff Wirth would say, "Don't kick yourself, it only gives you bruises.") Every day is new and God's waiting for His children to ask for help. He knows that we need to worship Him and will do anything so that we can have Him. Walking with Jesus is not just the spiritual high you get after summer camp. The richest part of a relationship comes as time goes on and we continue with perseverance and discipline. We consciously choose our Father over everything else.
I feel like I reference the Blue Book so much but I can't help it! I have to share! Here's the closing prayer for this week:
"You stir us so that praising you may bring us joy, because you have made us and drawn us to yourself, and our hearts are restless until they rest in you." -Confessions by St. Augustine
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